two years ago i wrote:
outrageous outings? i will out stuff i find outrageously cool, impressive, or beautiful. and i'll complain about all sorts of stuff, if i feel like it.
welcome. feel free to comment.
it was the beginning of my third blog, this particular one.
ever since, i have tried to find my unique style of posting and given up on the quest. since then i have tried to figure out the exact content limitations of my topics and given up on that, as well.
i have kept my innermost thoughts, my family and friends out of the blog, but have allowed myself the freedom to talk about issues that concern me any given time. since then i have posted everything i said i would – start vaguely and you have all the freedom in the world, right – and have gone deeper whilst staying superficial.
what i have realized is that this is my space and it will reflect whatever place i am at: i have no need to define either my style or my territory.
it is right here and mine to rule.
all this said, i am saddened to see that many of my fellow bloggers are feeling tired, drained and out of words. for some of them part of the reason appears to come from feeling left talking alone which is the most powerful insinuation that one's words have no significance. i can relate, because as i have explained before, i blog because it gives me the ability to communicate and it feels left halfway if noone reacts.
my consolation is the steadily increasing number of regulars – an international bunch you are – who come and keep on coming to read. i can never anticipate which posts create discussion, but i am not sure if i really care about the reasons anymore. i only keep on hoping that they would. create. discussion.
nevertheless, my flow is not drying up nor am i tired of blogging. i stumble into amazing things daily and although i have fairly little time to focus on actually developing a proper thought, let alone an argument, i will keep on outing outrageously cool, astonishing, strange, and annoying stuff as i have so far.
moreover and most importantly, i have enjoyed every contribution you, my readers, have ever made to my blog – even (or especially) when i haven't agreed with you – and i appreciate your effort in giving me feedback.
because i intend to follow my own voice from now on as i have done before, i am not open to suggestions of improvement. but, if you feel obliged, as a bday present to my blog i'd love to hear from you. if there were posts or topics that you've liked, topics that i have seemed to have given up, anything that you've enjoyed – this is a great time to remind me.
thank you for these past two years. there will be more.