well, the vote was clear and so was my decision: off came the hair.
after a rather radical hair alteration it is easy to get startled with your own image. i, nevertheless, instantly "recognized" the face from years ago and felt comfy right away.
i'm sure you can relate to the feeling of novelty you get when stepping out with a new haircut for the first time. you're just that bit more self-conscious and aware of your presence. a nervous tick flicking a piece of hair to its proper place. glancing at your image in shop windows. checking that everything is all right. at home you pucker in front of the mirror and take a good critical look, you try out outfits to find which suit the new you the best. check the angles of your face. smooth and puff, scrunch and sleek. it is a very tactile process in addition to visual stimulation.
the first time out feels like homecoming. i had to dj at beatroot, so i chose something comfy and unfrilly. without actually going for it, the tattooed sailor reflected my mood perfectly: a recycled cotton tee from h&m men's department, vintage brooches on both sleeves, cheap monday jeans and a pair of zara heels i bought over a year ago but never wore before. (and, yeah, i had some trouble focusing my eyes on anything else than my camera operating hand...)
i'm definitely liking it and feel, contrary to my fears, prettier (or something like that, dunno really) than in a long while. now i just have to get used to the (positive and negative) attention again...